Friends??

i wouldnt consider them friends. they are just the people i sit with at lunch or walk down the hall with to classes. i used to think we were actually becoming close. so i told them something really personal and u know what happened? they turned around and through it back in my face. the only girl that didnt say anything then rejected me and denied that she even knew me. why? all i can say is why? this was a big jump for me. confiding in people. 2 years ago i was completely stabbed in the back. i was told i was loved one day and the next i was laughed at. i was pushed down and left with no one. to have your best friend that you love so much turn around one day and for no reason hate you. it is hell. HELL. if u have never had that happen to u then u have no idea what it feels like. because of that i am scared to death of everything. and now i took a step towards having a normal life with friends again and it came back and bit me in the ***. i am now farther away from trust then i was before. i absolutaly hate myself for it.