I Can't Take This Anymore

I don't even know where to begin. I've known my husband since I was 12 because his sister is my best friend. So I've known him for 13 years. 13 years isn't long enough. Sometimes I think what the hell I got myself into and why I chose to marry him to begin with because I don't feel the love anymore. I hate the fact that he is so immature and never takes any responsibility. I get so stressed out from him that right now I'm having a hard time breathing and I'm having pain in my chest. I haven't experienced an anxiety attack since I use to work for Compass bank and had a c**t of a mgr. I get ignored all day and he wonders why we don't feel like a married couple anymore. The way he is pushes me away and I seriously feel like I'm falling out of love with him and don't want to be married anymore. Everything he does annoys me and upsets me. Another issue is money because its okay for him to give his family money when they need it but when my family asks its a huge issue. Nothing in this relationship seems worth it anymore. I feel that its easier to wish death on myself then deal with any of this. I'm so unhappy and miserable I can't believe I put myself in this situation. I hate myself for ever dealing with this. How can I let myself deal with this everyday. I really feel like this is going to be the death of me. I just want to cry and never stop. Why does this kind of crap exist. I hate this life and this world. I hate my husband especially since I can sit next to him on the couch and type this while he's playing a stupid video game. Show's how much this marriage is a failed one.
mommie2crysti mommie2crysti
26-30, F
1 Response Jul 13, 2010

You should get a divorce, you don't have kids, GET out!