Another Holiday With No Gift
I hate my husband!! Well maybe not him but the way he treats and speaks to me. My husband never has anything nice to say to me. Whenever he speaks to me it is in a rude and judgemental way. He condems and puts me down whenever he feels the need, this might be different if he was in a wonderful position but he is not he has a piece of a job and acts as though he is making millions of dollars. We just moved after 2 yrs of living with his parents (hell for me) but of course by feeling this way I was being ungrateful. I am tired of being a verbal punching bag. I am not an ugly woman and have had many opportunities to cheat but because I said I do I refrain from doing it... I don't know how much longer thats gonna last as a wife I need to be validated by my husband... and if not by him I will have to begin looking elsewhere to have my emotional needs met. Today is Christmas and after another argument that I didnt start I chose to stay here rather than go to my in-laws house.. where I feel like and outsider anyway. But today everyone had a gift under the tree except for me.... that hurts I was not looking for anything extravagant or expensive just something to know I was thought about. He gave me money friday which was spent on getting the kids last minute things and that is what he considered my gift.. I am so tired of hurting and crying I dont know what to do any more the saying "Its a thin line between love and hate is so true"