I Hate My Husband

SO, I HATE MY HUSBAND!  I REALLY THINK HE'S TRYING TO DRIVE ME CRAZY.....I'M 42 NO CHILDREN. CAN'T HAVE KIDS.  THIS IS MY SECOND MARRIAGE.  FIRST ONE LONG STORY.  I THOUGHT THIS ONE WAS IT.  THE MAN OF MY DREAMS.  THEN WE GOT MARRIED AND IT ALL CHANGED.
ALL I EVER WANTED WAS TO BE MARRIED HAVE A FAMILY.  I A GOOD PERSON WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR THE PEOPLE I LOVE.  MAYBE I'M THE ONE WHO IS MESSED UP.  HE DOESN'T HIT ME.  HE JUST PICK ON ME 24/7, JOKES ALL THE TIME.  SAYS I NEED TO LOOSEN UP.  TALKS LIKE DIFFERENT PEOPLE IN DIFFERENT VOICES.  WHEN WE ARE IN PUBLIC HE IS TOTALLY DIFFERENT.  HES OUTGOING, POLITE, NICE, FUN, GIVING.  THEN THE SECOND WE ARE ALONE HE CHANGES.   PEOPLE WOULDN'T BELIEVE ME IF I TOLD THEM WHAT HES LIKE AT HOME .  HE TELLS ME I'M LETTING THE DOGS OUT TO MANY TIMES I'M GOING TO WEAR THE HINGES OFF THE DOOR.  TELL ME I SPEND TO MUCH TIME ON MY HAIR AND MAKE-UP.
EXP.  OUR DOG HAD A PROBLEM GOING TO THE BATHROOM WHEN HE CAME IN MY HUSBAND ASKED IF THE DOG HAD POOP ON HIS BUTT.  I SAID NO.  HE SAID GOOD THING CAUSE YOU WOULD HAVE TO LICK IT OFF.  THERE ARE SO ANY THINGS I JUST CAN'T REMEMBER RIGHT NOW.  I'M SO DEPRESSED I DON'T WANT TO GET OUT OF BED I DON'T HAVE ANYONE TO TALK TO AND HE JUST KEEPS BEATING ME DOWN.  IF I LEAVE WHAT ARE PEOPLE GOING TO SAY.  SOME TIMES I JUST WANT TO BE ON MY OWN AND TAKE CARE OF MYSELF AND FOR GET ABOUT MEN OR HAVING ANY RELATIONSHIPS.  I ASK HIM IF WE CAN TALK AND HE JUST LAUGHS AT ME.  WHAT SHOULD I DO?  I CAN'T FIX THIS BY MY SELF.  ANYONE HAVE ANY ADVISE.  I HAVE MORE EXAMPLES IF YOU NEED IT.  I KEEP THEM WRITTEN DOWN.  IS THIS HOW MOST MARRIAGES ARE?