The Letter I Will Never Give Him.....

I can’t trust you anymore. You promised that you would NEVER ignore me. That if you needed time you would ALWAYS tell me that and come to me that day or night. You lied. The fact that this entire time I could be pregnant with your child and you ignore me and put me through this shows that you are not a man with character. You are proving to have NO morals. You are cold, and emotionally retarded. What you are doing is psychological and emotional abuse. To the WORST degree. You are evil. I have never been treated so badly in my entire life. No wonder your mother doesn’t marry your father. You and him are more alike than I realized. You are both selfish, childish, cavemen. You make promises that you don’t keep. You are supposed to be my support. EMOTIONALLY. You are supposed to make me feel safe. Tell me, how have you made me feel that way? How do you justify your behavior? There is NO excuse. A husband is supposed to alleviate ALL of their wife’s fears. He is supposed to try to make her happy. HOW do you try to make me happy? You cause me stress and you don’t care. If you actually cared about me you would have not gone skiing. That was a selfish, and horrible thing to do. You told your friend that you wanted to spend time with me because you had been neglecting me but admitted that was a lie. You ruined our anniversary and attacked me when you were drunk. You will NEVER be a good father or husband because you are only interested in making yourself happy. You are still a child. The fact that when you were a teenager you said to your mother that she should move out if that’s what makes her “happy” is EVIL. I should have known. What would have made her happy was probably being treated better by her only son and her husband, but you and him were too lazy and selfish to take the time to figure out what would make her happy, or listen to her for real. Like father like son. You are a horrible son and I don’t know what I would do if I had one like you. If you don’t sympathize with others or feel GENUINE compassion for others , that means you’re a psychopath. You have wasted some of the best years of my life. When I was young and vibrant. You bring me away from my family and friends and then you give up on our relationship. It’s ****** up that you don’t come home and cook a meal without being asked (several times) or do the dishes, or vacuum, or take the dog for a walk or anything else that is common living. I see other people SHARING chores, they don’t need to be asked, they just do it. It’s ****** up that you don’t take me on dates, that you don’t try to figure out what I want, that I have to give you ideas upon ideas upon ideas about you can “surprise” me with and even then you forget. You don’t take me to comedy shows, hockey games, picnics, concerts,…..Nothing. You don’t even do what I want sexually!! I mean wtf? I’ve been telling you for 3 years EXACTLY what you should do and you STILL DON’T DO IT!!! WHY? You tell me ONCE that you like your tip gripped a little tighter and not to pull back too hard and I remember!! How would you feel if you had to tell EVERY. SINGLE. TIME.? If I NEVER pleased you even though you kept telling me. Would you think I was stupid? Would you think I had a brain injury that prevented me from remembering certain things? Or would you think that I didn’t care to remember? Or would you think I was doing it on purpose? And now, you haven’t talked to me for 4 days. It feels like I can’t breath. I want to scream. I feel so abused.
“Indifference and neglect often do much more damage than outright dislike” J. K. Rowling
“The opposite of love is not hate, it’s indifference” Elie Wiesel
“Love cannot endure indifference. It needs to be wanted. Like a lamp, it needs to be fed out of the oil of another’s heart, or its flame burns low.” Henry Ward Beecher
“Indifference, to me, is the epitome of evil” Elie Wiesel
“Because of indifference, one dies before one actually dies.” Elie Wiesel
“The sensitivity of men to small matters, and their indifference to great ones, indicates a strange inversion.”
indifferenceIsEvil indifferenceIsEvil
26-30, F
3 Responses Jan 9, 2013

Please get a divorce, if you're that unhappy. Either fix it with the man you're with (if fixable) or get a new life... that's how it works...

Indifference is how I survive this.

Wow. I thought this was me writing this letter that will never be read by the intended person. I am so sorry. But I know exactly how you feel. Though I have no sound advice (as if you were even seeking any), you must take care of self. Love yourself to make rational decisions critical to your well being. You cannot do a thing about anyone else's actions, but you can certainly control yours. May your soul find peace somewhere, somehow.