I Loathe You With Every Fiber Of My Body

I'm almost 23, and I have a 2 year old son. I can't stand my husband anymore he is controlling, rude and makes jokes about my weight. I feel line he's running our son. I an the only one who disciplines him. I want to leave so bad, but I know that if I did my son and I wouldn't be able to make it. I pray floor help to leave but my family thinks he's perfect.he has everyone fooled and no one will listen to me. It is amazing to me that I once felt so much love for this man and now I loathe him. I wish he would stay at work until my son and I were asleep just do I don't have to see him.
Christiansmommy Christiansmommy
22-25, F
1 Response Jan 15, 2013

It sounds to me like you need to talk to your family and ask for support. If you loathe your spouse, that will not be good for any of you. This will lead to resentment and anger which could in turn be harmful to those around you. I know its hard to leave when you don't have the resources but you are young and with the love and support of your family you can leave. You still need to establish a mature relationship with your son's father for your son's sake. Don't stay in an unhealthy realtionship simply because you feel there are no other options. There are always options. BTW...have you talked to your husband about the way he makes you feel?

I've tried to talk to him. It turns into an argument. everything I say turns into an argument. And the worst part is he was laid off a yr ago and we had to move almost 5 hrs away from my family so he could find work. It's very hard. I'm finally going to be getting my own vehicle in about a month and then were gone. I honestly feel nothing anymore. I'm so numb inside to the point I know that I love my son but sometimes I find myself even questioning that.

I'm sure you love your son, the numbness you feel sounds like you have depression. If you get help, anti-depressants the will help so much, you will feel optimistic again and they'll help you regain the confidence you had.