I Hate My Husband, Too.

I met my husband when I was pregnant (7 months mind you) with another man's child. I was living with my mother at the time because my daughter's father kicked me out shortly after we found out I was with child. I was in a bad place and not even looking for a relationship. Me and my current husband started out as friends both going through a rough time. He had just ended a 3 year relationship and was coping himself. One thing led to another and BOOM we were dating.

He was SOOOO amazing! He would send me sweet texts in the morning and we'd stay up all night just talking to each other. He went to parenting classes with me and told me he wanted to be a part of this baby's life! He was there on the day she was born holding my hand and was one of the first people to hold her. It seemed all of my sadness in the past was finally worth it. We moved into our home two short months later and 3 months after that we got engaged!

Shortly before we got married we found out that I was pregnant again! We were so happy!! We were married a year after we got together and I was four months pregnant at the time. We went on our honeymoon and had a great time and then as soon as we got home, EVERYTHING CHANGED!!!

Suddenly he wasn't interested in being sweet or nice to me at all for that matter. Disagreements arose and when I tried to quietly talk things out he would blow up and get angry, yelling in front of my daughter and I'd just have to walk away. At first he would follow me to continue the argument and after a while of that he just stopped. He didn't care anymore. He DOESN'T care anymore.

He took a job I begged him not to. It's a good paying job but only has a few employees and therefore can make them do whatever they want and work whenever they want and can fire them at the drop of a hat. My husband wanted the job and it caused a LOT of fights between us. I work too so we weren't hurting for money and he very well could have taken another job, he's very well qualified.

Now here I am 8 months pregnant taking care of a 15 month old, the house, and going to work. I don't get any help with my daughter or the housework I have to do everything myself. I don't get any love or affection from my husband either. He works from sun up to sun down and then comes home, takes a shower, gets something to eat and goes to bed. Even when I try to reach out to him and kiss or hug him I get instantly shut down.

I've tried to talk to my husband several times on why the sudden change and all I ever get is I don't know and if I press the issue any I get yelled at and it starts a fight. We no longer have sex we no longer do anything. It's as if he doesn't care about us at all. But everytime I bring up him leaving he won't hear it, or even me leaving! At first he will say its a good idea and when it gets down to it he breaks. It's a constant back and forth battle.

At this point I'm only staying for the financial benefit. I will be going on maternity leave soon and won't have much income while I'm out. But if things don't change before I go back to work, then I'm leaving. I've made up my mind and I deserve better than what he's giving me. The kids deserve to have a father that actually wants to spend time with them, that doesn't think about only himself. I don't intend to stay in a dead end relationship for years hoping and praying that things will get better. If I have to do it on my own anyways then I don't see the point in staying around someone I can't even stand.

It hurts because I still love my husband but I know his love for me is dead, and I often doubt his love for the children too. He didn't want to even take time off when our son is born and this will be his first biological child!

shoxic shoxic
22-25, F
Jan 16, 2013