I Guess I Don'T Hate Him
I'm not even going to go through full lengths to hid the fact that I am writing about him. Even though we use a shared computer he would not care enough to go through the history just to see what i'm looking at when I'm home. I am a stay at home mother of 1 and pregnant with my 2nd child. My husband works full time and makes 50,000.00 a year. I hate being a stay at home mother with no income. I feel like my whole life is dictated by what he says and how he thinks it should be. While he does let me manage the finances ( only because he has finally proven to himself that paying the regular monthly bills is a difficult task for him) I have no control of anything else. My opinion is not even valued by him at all. I feel that he makes my like hard due to the fact that he never listens to me and never takes my opinion into consideration. For example I noticed the battery light coming on in the car about a month and a half ago. I told my husband that we need a new battery. He dismissed me and said No it's fine. About a month later the muffler fell off the car ( cheap husband hog tied it up) and the glow plug light was blinking. I told him he needs to service the only mode of transportation that we have asap so we can continue on with our daily lives. Well of course he did not listen to me and payday came and gone and the car broke down! I cannot go to the grocery store or see my mother who is in the hospital an hour away. I also had to catch the bus to my prenatal appointment and that was very uncomfortable. He will not let me work cause he wants his children at home with their mother on top of that he feels like daycare is to expensive but my 2 year old is wild and I feel he would enjoy ( as would I ) 1 day a week daycare for maximum of 4 hours. I also want to decorate our home but my husband wants second hand furniture. He wants second hand everything. While it's great to bargain shop I also think it's okay to splurge on that one item that makes you feel good and makes you happy. Ultimately I feel like my husband is weighing down my life buy now allowing me to work. I feel like I need to start saving for the things I want. He controls even my underwear before we got together I really loved to by my panties at Soma boutique but he insist on undies from Target or Kmart. One time I told my husband I needed a new bra so he proceeded to call his mother who took me to BIG LOTS to bug undergarments. Oh yeah he also bought my engagement ring from K mart. This morning I needed supplies because I knew i would be home with the baby for 12 hours. I did not have enough time to go to the store so he wanted to me give his brother 60 dollars to go to the store for me. My brother in law steals so much they should cut his hands off. I have no faith in him. This stole shoes from his 11 year old nephew and put them on his feet and wore them. The bum is currently sporting the stolen tennis shoes to this day. My husbands gets mad at me because I don't want to give this kleptomania brother money for him to steal. I just feel like this man does not value me and I wonder what it would be like after all these years to be with someone who really appreciated me. Thanks for listening.