I Just Can't Take It Anymore!

 I  hate my husband!    I have been married to my second husband for almost 12 years.  I have two biological children with him and I have two children from a previous marriage .  My second husband is considered my other two children's father , even though he never legally adopted them.  Their biological father walked away and has not been in their life for almost 12 years.  I though that my second husband was the man I have been looking for all my life, WRONG!  I should have known that when I got pregnant with my son and he pushed me down, he was a loser....  TO make a long story as short as possible, my husband is a needy person who wants all of my time.  I work 5-6 days a week, don't come home until 6:30 p.m. each night and have four kids to take care of with no help from him.  Excuse me if I can't give him all my attention the minute I walk through the door.  On two occasions my husband emotionally cheated on me, via the internet.  I am not talking about ****, because I can handle that, it is only fantasy.  He built relationships with other women, who lived far away making up all these lies and making these poor vulnerable women fall in love with a man that he made up.  He thought i was computer illiterate but I am quite the opposite.  I caught him and gave him hell.  Because he never physically met these women I was able to forgive, but never forget nor trust completely.  Well just recently, on 1/19/2009 to be exact, my husband was at it again.  This time was different though, he was talking to someone who lived not too far from us, about 1/2 hour away.  He also crossed the line, and actually met this girl in a parking lot and took her out for a 2 hourcoffee date.  He swears up and down nothing happened and it is not what I think, he just needed someone to talk to but he is such a liar.  The idiot used his cell phone which is under my name and I see every call he makes, to correspond with her.  I called the girl and knew that I had to throw his *** out.  I packed as much of his stuff in black garbage bags and left them all on the front deck for him.  That was it, never let him back in the house after that.  I am sad one minute and happy the next.  I do not want him back as a husband.  I can not live with some one I cannot ever trust again.  Just thought I would share this with others.  I never thought that I would be able to do this, but I did.  All of a sudden I got the strength from somewhere that I did not know I had.  He is now kissing my butt to get me back, promising the world, but it isn't going to happen.  Never trust a man after the first incident, once a cheater always a cheater!  I hate my husband for destroying our family and taking away everything from me.

 

BLUEIZZZZ BLUEIZZZZ
41-45, F
2 Responses Feb 16, 2009

I hate cheaters because I married onen also.. I heard the B.S. about he never slept with her and it turned out to be a big FAT LIE. <br />
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He cried and blubbered and I let him come home. DON"T DO IT!!!! <br />
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I regret it so much. It is not working and I'm trapped now because of finances and kids. <br />
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Be strong. Have you tried some yoga classes? It's nice to let it all go. It's like a mini mental vacation. <br />
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Take this time without him to enjoy not having to think about what he did and who he did it with. Not having to wonder where he is or who he's doing. You can do this!!!<br />
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Oh how I envy you because the gross daily irritant has been removed from your life. Some day soon, I will be in your shoes!!! *sigh*<br />
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No one can tell you what to do. Or judge what you do. So, if you do decide to let him back, do it on YOUR terms. <br />
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Men suck so completely and totally.

You go, girl! Stay strong!