My Marriage Is a Joke
First of all, I want to say how strange this feels for me to say this to someone. I was looking for advice on divorce and I ended up at this site.
I might as well start at the beginning...I am a recovering drug addict. I have two beautiful children that I had after I had quit using drugs. I am not a saint, and I have fallen of the wagon a couple of times in the last 9 years. (4 times to be exact...)
I have been with my Husband for almost 15 years and married for 9 years. He and I have been through alot together. He has zero tolerance for any screw ups.
I don't ever think about using drugs anymore. I do however like to have an occasional drink. I am talking maybe 3 times a year. Refering to this year. Last year I didn't have any.
Problem, he freaks and calls me weak and stupid and selfish etc etc. I don't want to be with him anymore. He is an *******.
He yells at the kids, he yells at me, he yells at everything that he might have to deal with like an adult. I hate the way he bashes my self esteem and my childrens.
I cringe when he wants to have sex with me. I litterally start feeling like I am going to throw up all over. He grosses me out. I don't find him attractive anymore and think he is a loser.
He however feels that he would be an awesome catch for some lady out there...I wish he would leave and go find her.
I guess I am going to have to do something about this because he has already told me he can live miserable his whole life and he isn't going anywhere...lucky me...
I HATE HIM SO MUCH!!!