My Government Job Is Ruining My LifeI hate my job in state government. When people complain about the government they tend to focus on the legislature (state or Congress) and the chief executive (governor or President). People in those positions may do stupid things and are more visible but its the complete morons in the rest of the executive branch that are responsible for the fact that government is an inefficient mess.
The pay is horrible and no amount of effort will get you a raise. Everyone gets the same thing whether they work or sit on their *** all day. And the raises are miniscue, 1-3% and not even every year. Raises for managers have been frozen since 2008 so I have gotten nothing. This is despite the fact that I am doing multiple jobs.
95% of the people are idiots and incredibily lazy. Most don't even understand the purpose of their jobs or the program they are supporting. This goes for low level secretaries and upper management. I used to work with brilliant people I admired. Now I work with C- students who have chosen jobs where effort is unimportant and they are safe from accountability and being fired for poor, or no, performance. I even blame our pension system. People that will work for less money all their lives just so they won't be fired and don't have to be intelligent enough to manage a 401K are hiding - hiding from work and accomplishment.
I'm so depressed. There are days when I wake up and cry. I'm being treated for depression and call off sick more and more. I keep working hard though I know I'm becoming less and less motivated. Its killing me that I'm not living up to my potential. I was going to do so much more with my life but things got screwed up. I took this job because I needed one and now its been over five years, the economy is in bad shape, and I don't feel I've gained any skills to make myself any more marketable for something different. I want to go to school to get my Master's but I can't afford it and I'm in such bad shape I know I wouldn't do well now.
I deserve more. The few people that recognize that but say their hands are tied, there's no way to pay me. It's against the rules - pay is limited. I am out peforming people that have been in their ******* jobs longer than I have been alive! Its 2 AM and I can't sleep. Tomorrow morning is going to be hell. I'm likely to call off - again. Work has always been so important to me and now I hate my life. And bills and debt have me stuck. When I can't earn more what do I do? Wait to win the lottery? :(
It's now nearly two years later and guess what...I still work with the same morons! Well, not all the same. Some have retired so now they don't even have to be in the building in order for the state to pay them money. But good people have also left. We can't seem to retain anyone under 30. Two recent college grads who had yet to be ruined by the zombie apocalypse that is my state's government left within a month of each other because....they weren't being given enough work!!! They wanted to learn things and do something useful and apparently no one supported them so they left. And the managers in their area constantly ***** that they are understaffed because so many positions have been vacated (more often due to retirements or transfers than resignations). The positions are then "frozen" so they can't be filled. When the place doesn't implode after so many months of a job being left unfilled then the job is eliminated. That's asinine and since it happened in that area so many times I assumed they really WERE understaffed. Apparently that's not the case. I know there are projects that were never started after major money was invested in them, supposedly due to lack of people. Well when two people ask for things to do and aren't assigned any work I guess that means the area is OVERSTAFFED!
I'm back in school getting my Master's in public administration. I may not stay in government (at least not in the ****** up one I'm currently in) but I find the classes interesting and they have helped me with work. I even wrote a long paper on how things where I work suck and how to fix them. I didn't include incite angry mobs to beat lazy employees and crooked politicians/political appointees to death with sticks - but I should have. I'll probably do an MBA as well since I'm not getting everything I want out of the current program. But I wouldn't get everything I wanted out of just an MBA either. Even after years of witnessing colossal stupidity everyday I'm still not anti-government, just anti-stupid. Maybe I'll end up moving back and forth between the public and private sectors. My desire for a PhD and faculty position in my original field of study is waining somewhat. I'd have to go to school full-time and even if by magic I could start tomorrow I'd be a bit old to be competing for a position. And all those "young investigator awards" new assistant professors get...."He's 40 why is he applying for this?". I'm trying to plot out a future where I'm not spending may days untying knots and listening to politicians tell me I will go another year without a raise while they and unionized employees get them. Ideally my state would be thrown out of the United States. I think I could have some fun then. I won't take on the federal government but I'm pretty sure I could beat the people running this state if all they had to backup their laws were themselves.
Sorry that wasn't all that entertaining. Maybe I'll do another update with more stories from work that are actually funny.