My Job Stresses Me Out
i am in the worst situation , i am totally stressed out about the fact i am filing bankruptcy and on top of it my job stresses me out really bad. i have to have this job because it has health insurance and my friend got the job for me that works there. everyone there is really nice and has helped me get trained and i feel like i would be screwing everyone over. i feel they would be so shocked if i quit because i always say i like the job and try to keep a positive happy attitude. everyone think everything is fine. the truth is that i started grinding my teeth at night and i am so stressed out i cry all weekend and count down the minutes till monday. i have been having panic attacks too. deep down i am shy and a timid person.being in an office setting always in the spotlight makes me so stressed, i thought it would help me to be more outgoing and its too much. i also feel so terrible because i am losing everything i have. i work in a very busy clinic where you have to be on top of things and there is responsibility and constant contact with people and technicians and doctors . working with a huge flow if people is so emotionally draining and stresses me out really bad. on top of it i get really bad seasonal depression. i feel like when fall comes i wont be able to work in that type of environment . i dont know what to do . i thought working this type of job would give me confidence and its just making me sick. i will never be able to get a job as high paying and that offers benefits because i only got the job through my friend. my family will be so dissapointed and people will wonder what is wrong with me because i am broke and quitting my job. i would let down all the people that were proud i got the job, i am in the worst situation.