I Hate My Job And Am Depressed
Can I start by saying that I really hate my job? Ha.
I've been at the same place for 4 years but my roles have changed 3 different times. I always thought maybe it would be better if my role changed, if I travelled more and if I made more. All of those things have happened and I couldn't be any more miserable!
I'm American but I live and work abroad in Europe. I initially came here 4 years ago and I got this job I wasn't so keen on from the beginning but I thought things might change. A few years later I got a promotion and then I decided to stay. Now it's over a year later, and I freakin HATE it. I don't care if I'm in Kenya right now for work. Or that I travel around Europe for meetings.. I feel like I'm not doing that great of a job because I'm not motivated and just feel uninterested and uninspired. I wish I could snap out of it, focus and do a good job but I feel so depressed that I'm blinded.
My contract is up in about 3 months and I know I should be applying for other jobs, but I am so confused at which way to go, I'm paralyzed. I need to figure out what I really want to do in life but I just don't know. Now I have a boyfriend here and good friends that I really care alot about. Leaving the city I live in isn't an option at the moment because in actuality I love where I live, but I just hate my job. So I have a few vested interests in staying here. On the other hand, there aren't many jobs opportunities here and I would have to stay in a certain line of work I'm not so interested in due to what's available in the country.
I am one confused little person. Sigh.
Does anyone have any advice? Maybe career advice or helpful suggestions?