I Hate My Life, Being Married...just Venting

Sometimes it seems like my husband treats me wrong. And then I go in the kitchen, and fix something to cook for myself, and while I am preparing the food, I like to move my lips while I am praying. Yes, I like to speak the prayer outloud. I whisper it, like I am having a conversation with the Lord. Sometimes people think I am talking to myself when I do that, but I just feel so alone at times and have no one else to speak to except God. People think I am nuts because I communicate with God this way a lot of times.   Like they spread nasty rumors that I am talking to myself, when I am really not.
MedicalStudent1228 MedicalStudent1228
26-30, F
1 Response May 10, 2012

I have spent three years and every penny I saved to get an RN degree. I worked in a hospital and quit because I couldn't handle the fast pace. I got a job in a nursing home and was fired for not being able to handle the fast pace and not taking good care of a patient. I'm still in school trying to get my bachelor in nursing. I have student loan up to the gazoo and no prospect of a job. I feel so useless I just want to crawl in a hole and die.