It's A Vicious Cycle

I need health insurance because of my asthma.  But I can't get health insurance because I turned 18 and the child health insurance thing ran out. The only other way to get health insurance is by getting  a job , but I can't get a job because I don't have a car and there are no jobs available within walking distance. And I can't get a car because I'm still taking lessons and I suck at them. Goddamit, there's nowhere to turn. I'm living at my mom's house. I'll probably stay there suffering from my asthma and taking up space until I die, or she dies, and I get kicked out onto the street. I don't think I can take this much longer. I can't suffer from asthma forever. I don't like complaining, but there is nothing else I can do right now. If things don't change pretty soon, I'll have to kill myself.
loser9 loser9
18-21, M
3 Responses Aug 12, 2010

I can totally relate. I have epilepsy and haven't been able to drive for over a year now because of it. I've had to turn down many good jobs because I have to either be able to walk to my job or take a bus that just goes down the main street. I now do a minimum wage job and I have a bachelor's degree. I even married a guy pretty much just so I could get the health insurance I so desperately needed. But we've got to believe that our lives and our health will get better and we'll be stronger for it. Maybe we're supposed to become disability advocates or something one day. I'll just keep hoping for strength for both of us.

Yeah, I get a decent wage where I work nowadays (I got my license 3 years ago), but the hours are shorter than Id like tem to be, so it evens out to be just a little over what a full time minimum wage worker makes, and as far as driving goes, I'm now pretty much limited to driving to work, the gas station, and the dollar store for what I need. I still feel like I'm missing out on my life because of this fear.

This pretty much sums up my life.<br />
I got beetus.<br />
I live at my moms.<br />
Im nineteen.<br />
I wont get driving lessons again until next month.<br />
I take a half hour bus drive to the hotel I work at and get home on the tip i get.<br />
Youre not alone. Its not that bad, my life sucks pretty much at the moment but something positive will surely come on our plate soon dude (if not this month then next year)

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