I Hate My Life Right Now

Merry Christmas! Bah Humbug

By: teri58

Written on December 25th, 2011

For some of us Christmas is a time of feeling alone and depressed. I have always loved Christmas but this year did it for me. I think I am done. We opened presents at my house tonight and I sat and watched as my kids, grandkids and hubby opened at least 10 to 15 presents each. I had a whole three presents under the tree. One was a gift that all of my children pitched in together for me. The other two were pieces of jewlery that I bought for myselff and he insisted I wrap and put under the tree. It is sad when I am not appreciated anyore then that. I guess I should quit whining about my sad life. I will but before I do, I have to say that Christmas will be different one way or another. I do so much for him throughout the year and this is the reward I get. I think I am done. No more self pity and no more sympathic soul. I can't play this game anymore. Time for rule changes.

By: teri58

Age: 51-55 , Female

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12 responses

foreverbluewolf

I actually had to stop reading, as it hit a nerve with me, I feel the same, I will come back and comment when I am able

thank you for sharing

Jan 3, 2012
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- teri58
  I am so sorry my story upset you. Guess you must understand what I am going through. I wish you the best and send you ***Hugs***.
  
  Jan 3, 2012
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Happenstothebest

I guess that I'm not the only who had a disappointing Christmas. I love the family thing, but when you're made to feel that you don't belong it is really disheartening.

Dec 26, 2011
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- teri58
  Yes it is. Just makes you feel that you are there for everyone to use to there advantage. Thanks for sharing with me!
  
  Dec 26, 2011
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m00nmeister

I don't see myself as much of a lifeline, but I feel your pain, especially this time of year. When the time comes when you make your exit, you'll only hear kudos from me. All the best. :)

Dec 25, 2011
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- teri58
  That is all I am going to need to hear. Thank you!
  
  Dec 25, 2011
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m00nmeister

I agree.

Dec 25, 2011
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- teri58
  Good morning m00nmeister! I knew I could count on your support. When I get really down, you pop in to help brighten my day. Thanks soo much for ebeing a life line for me. I hope you will be arounfd to support me when I get things moving because I am sure I will need support. Even if it is nothing more then someone to listen to me vent or a shoulder to lean on or cry on. Thanks soo much my friend!
  
  Dec 25, 2011
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Hypericum

Can understand why you feel so bad, so sending you some warm gestures.

Dec 25, 2011
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- teri58
  Hypericum, thanks so much. I guess I have finally been pushed over the top and I have to figure my life out so I can start being happy too. Everyone around me is happy and can't see how unhappy I am. It is sad when you do so much and are never appreciated. Thank you soo much for the support!
  
  Dec 25, 2011
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Carissimi

Oh Terri, I am so glad to hear you say that. You've been flogging a dead horse, and it's never getting up again. I think you have just seen the light. No expectations of him...this is real progress, as painful as it may be for you. Keep thinking this way, Terri, and you will free yourself from that prison you're in.

Dec 25, 2011
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- teri58
  Thanks Carissimi, I guess I have finally been pushed far enough. It is time to start figuring out what the first step is going to be. I believe a visit to a lawyer might be in order. Get some legal advice before I make any moves. Then ASAP, I am out of here.
  
  Dec 25, 2011
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