Just Venting

I hate my life. I hate how everything I attempt to do doesn't work out. I'm tired of working hard and not getting what I deserve. I'm tired of being afraid all the time and having intense anxiety to the point where I have panic attacks every month or so. It scares me so much. I hate how I over think and run my life based on my emotions. I hate how I'm always so cynical and never happy about anything.

Yesterday I was speaking to my mom and she asked me, "why are you so miserable?". I know I"m miserable. I'm afraid of the future; I'm afraid of death; I'm afraid of missing out on life. I have so many dreams and desires and I feel like my life is at a standstill. Nothing is moving no matter how I try to change them. I work hard and nothing is rewarded to me. When will my efforts pay off? When will I get a break from the stress and disappointment?

i know my life isn't as bad as most people but i'm a sensitive person. Things affect me deeply. I just pray that I get out of this funk. I'm tired and scared and want a peace of mind.
Firebird3429 Firebird3429
18-21, F
1 Response May 14, 2012

You should do the opposite of what you are doing now. Enjoy the littlle things focus on the posotive things and be strong is the only advice i can give to help bare with the bad things in life. Remeber it your life you can gain the control that you deserve in your life by changing your belifs. I reccomend the law of attraction it takes time but its more of a spiritual process to me than a law of quantum physics. Hope it all turns out well.