I Hate My Life

It's okay, don't feel sorry for me... N one would ever notice if I left this world and wondered around in the darkness between earth and heaven. I just need to end my suffering. It's all going to be okay don't worry about me. No one ever does. But I'm used to it. It's always been me raising myself alone. Sure I have parents... But there to busy fighting to even take one look at me... I would make myself a gift on my birthday when I was little and then listen to my parents yell at eachother more. Then, I'd sit in my room everynight and rich myself to sleep. I thought that was normal.... just one click of a gun.... One click... Would end it all
Kittylovesrainbows Kittylovesrainbows
13-15, F
2 Responses Feb 16, 2013

A Psalm of Life

Tell me not, in mournful numbers,
Life is but an empty dream! —
For the soul is dead that slumbers,
And things are not what they seem.

Life is real! Life is earnest!
And the grave is not its goal;
Dust thou art, to dust returnest,
Was not spoken of the soul.

Not enjoyment, and not sorrow,
Is our destined end or way;
But to act, that each tomorrow
Find us farther than today.

Art is long, and Time is fleeting,
And our hearts, though stout and brave,
Still, like muffled drums, are beating
Funeral marches to the grave.

In the world's broad field of battle,
In the bivouac of Life,
Be not like dumb, driven cattle!
Be a hero in the strife!

Trust no Future, howe'er pleasant!
Let the dead Past bury its dead!
Act, — act in the living Present!
Heart within, and God o'erhead!

Lives of great men all remind us
We can make our lives sublime,
And, departing, leave behind us
Footprints on the sands of time;

Footprints, that perhaps another,
Sailing o'er life's solemn main,
A forlorn and shipwrecked brother,
Seeing, shall take heart again.

Let us, then, be up and doing,
With a heart for any fate;
Still achieving, still pursuing,
Learn to labor and to wait.

~ Henry Wadsworth Longfellow ~

i kno u said not to feel sorry for u but i still do. its just bs. everyone should get the opportunity to start out on equal footing. its just bs, it makes me so mad. when pple say lifes not fair i just get pissed cause thats just ridiculous. why exist in a world that destroys pple before they can even speak a word? why not start off equal and let your decisions take you up or down. im christian but if theres a god i would love to know whats going through his damn head that makes him think this is best. its nonsense and it makes me wonder why even bother with religion. if i had the resources to help u i would but life hates me so all i can offer is my advice and sympathy. Good luck you need it way more then other pple i kno that complain they dont have any luck.

:/ thankyou. You seem like u need someone to talk to. I'm always here if u do... Just an option

ya theres a lot on my mind. lol but ive typed many long winded paragraphs now, but i havent heard as much from u in the comments. dont let me ramble on all day lol. whts on ur mind?

Just thinking about a spot by the river I always used to go. It was hidden so I only knew were it was. It was an open place and I'd go there almost eveyday for the whole day to swim and think and write... But it's flooded now....

There was like a little pool there filled with moutain snow water. It was blue but just warm enough to swim in...

wow i wish i could see that. i saw the rockies last summer it was amazing. I used to walk my dog jack to a small creek hidden behind a hill. he would always try to look inside this concrete tunnel and one time he fell in. it was funny. nature has many untold beauty's. thanks for sharing. I like to also drive to this hill and look at the stars. i usually get something to eat and even though its far i play some music and im there in no time.

Yea wow I just got that today.

wtf? really? weird... ha np

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