I hate my life. I hate it.

Only half of it has to do with medical problems. The other half consists of my home life, my job and the fact that I can't even predict my future cause of how ****** up everything is. I have an insane amount of stress, anxiety, and worries. I was just crying cause I got into a fight with my mother again. I can't keep doing this I can't. I need to change my life. I need to make things better for myself. I'm not going to get any help from anyone with that and I don't care.

All I want right now is for my physical pain to go away. I just feel so sick.

Being called useless by my own mother cause I told her how sick I was feeling tonight that I might not be able to go to work tomorrow.

I don't want to live here anymore. I wish I could move out but I can't. I'm stuck here. I need to find a ton of ways to start ignoring my home life complications and just focus on myself. It's the only way I'm going to feel better.

I have so many problems, problems I shouldn't even have to be dealing with at age 20.

I love my mom & my family. But I need to find a way to disconnect myself for a little while.
PsychGirl94 PsychGirl94
22-25, F
1 Response Aug 31, 2014

Have you moved out in the meantime?

can't. no where to go.

Oh. I know what that's like. I still live with my parents too. Even with a job, I can't afford to move out.

It sucks. >_<

Definitely. Maybe if I find another school to teach in, I'll be able to do something about it. Right now I only have 55% of the classes. If I could get it up to a 100% I might get the financial stability to move out on my own. But the problem is that there are no schools in my area in need of an English teacher.

hmm.. maybe you'll have to look further away from home. my brother and his fiance need to move out of state for her to find a teaching job.

Well, that's the problem with working in schools. No school will offer you full 100% that you need. At absolute best, you can get 66% from what I've seen so far. And that's still not enough. So you have to get hired by two schools just to support yourself, and they usually don't. It's annoying, to be honest.

damn. :\ That's unfortunate..

I could also work as a translator. But apparently, translators are hired based on their recommendations. There's never any add in the papers asking for one. :(

anywhere else you could look for one?

Nope. That's just it. No one asks for a translator. If they need one, he or she is recommended to them.

Damn :/

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