I Hate My Life
It doesn't make sense to me anymore...none of it does. I try and I try and I try and I try but everytime I always seem to fail. No matter how hard I try im always knocked down before I can even stand up, and who's there? Who's there to help me up? Who's there? I'll tell you who's there, nobody. It's been almost three years ago since i've been dealing with this on my own. I want to tell someone, I have to tell someone but nobody seems to care anymore. On this exact date 15 years ago March 19 1993 I was born and yet no one even cared to tell me happy birthday or give me a small gift. But just happy birthday what have been enough for me to cheer me up but that's not what happened. My shallow heart is the only thing that's beating and every snicker every glance is killing me. The lyrics to my favorite song: Stop and stare I try to move but I go nowhere, yeah I know that everyone gets scared but i've become what I can't be ohh do you see what I see? This is so right about me, I tryed but I can't do this on my own anymore and no one seems to want to help.
If everyone was paying attention they would realise the warning signs are there. The warning signs of suicide but they're just soo busy with their perfect lives that they can't stop and ask if theirs anything wrong...not one person not ONE has asked me how my day was or how am I doing. I don't belong here, that's why im done..
No more Pain, No more heartache, No more sorrow, No more pressure NO MORE! I don't wanna be here anymore...my mind is set...no one can talk me out of this. Tomorrow I will go to school like any other day except it will be my last and no one will know it. No one will tell me hey or how ya doing or nothing, they will glance at me with that look in their eyes like they do all the time...and the next day...when the glance over to stare at me. Do you know who will be their? No one...
