Social Anxiety

i have had social anxiety since i was a child never fitted in given the tag of shy, and the runt of the family.told my other siblings were strong and able,and could never be like them ,had a heart defect at 5 years old so was again over protected ,lived with a mother that had anxiety and depression .tried to get through school and higher education it never happened i paniced and ran away,i am very lonley and my biggest dream  is to have mates to go to social events with oh and to have a mate to have a coffee and a gossip with oh the joy!and to have my lovley daughters round for a meal ,i so miss them but even being with them causes me to feel severve panic,when is this going to end
vileda vileda
41-45, F
Jul 3, 2007