Ugh I hate my stupid life. I ****** up my grades because I wasn't at school a lot and in a lot of pain, so now I feel like a ******* idiot. It's my fault that I probably won't go to college but who cares since I'm a screw up anyway. My friends are not interested in me anymore because I'm not as smart as they are. I used to be so happy, my best friend and I used to be really close, but once we got to high school and a friend from her church came, she started to ignore me. Not completely at first, but just the other day I said hi to her and she completely ignored me and talked to her other friend. She seems to like her other friend a lot more.
I think about self harm a lot, but I'm always too chicken to actually do anything about it, so I just wash my hands in really hot water or bruise myself.
I really hate my life. Sometimes I feel content with it, and other times I want to just disappear. Sometimes I feel normal, and sometimes I feel really moody-like a red hot rage. Please help...
RileyBloom RileyBloom
18-21, F
2 Responses Jan 14, 2014

I suggest not holding everything inside, especially the rage, high Skool sucks, but people say we have to do it,

I would help you as much as I can, but I don't think a 16 or 17 year old can get much help from a 12 year old :( you have a cute name though ;)