The very things i'm dreaming about are killing me. Nothing I do is successful. I am so bitter I wish I could just start over. Nothing seems to stem my tide of depression. I tried self harm and found I didn't have the guts to do it. I tried love but got rejected, twice so far. I tried doing what ever I wanted to without regards to right and wrong. There is NO relief anywhere to be found.
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3 Responses Aug 26, 2014

I use to be very much in the very same place as you. This story sounds alot like me, and all i can give advice on is try to find something where you can find happyiness not in women or such, for example mine was a new culture entirely. I started watching anime and reading manga and from there into the whole culture itself. try to change in a differant way and try to forget the past its like your a new in a different way without the pain. If you wish to try some animes can very well help you feel better or have smething toat least get your mind off it. i hope this was some help best of luck to you man.

I'm sorry to break it to you but you can't start over by killing yourself. But you can start over by maybe going to a new school, get a new job, make new friends, you could even run away ( I don't suggest it but it's better than killing yourself. But if you have a roof over your head, and food to eat, and non-abusive parents you could end up somewhere worse if you run away ) if you don't have the guts to self harm there's obviously someone or something keeping you from doing it. And if just think about the people you would leave behind and how much they would miss you.

Oh sorry I see, by hurting yourself you're not going to improve anything. You'll just make matters worse on yourself, maybe instead if cutting or breaking bones you could talk to someone, like your parents, siblings, or get a counselor. Or you could try to fix your problems. Or I could help yoi

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sorry to hear that