I'm Slipping Into Darkness

I feel like I'm falling backwards into darkness with nothing to grab a hold of. It used to be that looking at my son was enough for me to want to live. That is beginning to not be enough anymore. He would be better off without a mother like me. I'm such a **** up its crazy. I feel like if I continue to be his mother he will turn out to be even worse then me. I love him, but that isn't enough anymore.

RabidusDecorus RabidusDecorus
26-30, F
1 Response Mar 20, 2009

If you let your want to have a better life stew then you're going to do you both some damage. Don't abandon him, but do whatever you have to do to make things better for yourself. Give him an answer to the problem he will enivitably face(he will face this problem eventually because he is your son).