Why Am I Here, Again?

Im not suicidal, I just wonder why am I here? I try to recall everything I learned in church and Sunday school and I'm not figuring this out. I'm 32, no friends, spouse or children. I don't like being alone yet this is how my life is. I'm active in trying to change my life's circumstances but it blows up in my face. I lost my job in Oct '09 and my finances took a hit. I can't help but wonder how things would've have been different if I had friends,a spouse or something more meaningful in my life. I've missed out on alot of opportunities because I'm alone in everything I do and I don't have a lot of support. Im very depressed over this. I feel good in the sense that I'm not lying to myself about it anymore- I know I hate my life and I can say it without hesitation. It almost annoys me when someone says that things are going bad for them yet they have a spouse, children, friends that can lend an ear. It's suffocating when you don't have anyone to turn to, at all.

PalmFronds PalmFronds
31-35, F
3 Responses Feb 27, 2010

whatever you do, do not give up! everyone has problems but all you can do is keep trying to find the good things in life! There is always someone to talk to here, and we will listen! Keep the faith! I wish you happiness, I wish you peace, and I wish you joy!

"Im not suicidal, I just wonder why am I here?"<br />
You don't need to be suicidal to be here, I was here before a while back too. It's a place to share your stories and find friends among people who have experienced similar situations :)<br />
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"I'm active in trying to change my life's circumstances but it blows up in my face." Good work! Just keep trying, don't give up! It will all work out for the best even though it doesn't seem like it now. <br />
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"Never let life's hardships disturb you ... no one can avoid problems, not even saints or sages.<br />
-Nichiren Daishonen"

Don't look back, just keep moving foward! Your still young, you still have plenty of years to live, and many opportunities left to make your life better. Even if other do not, all of us here at the experience project will listen, you can turn to us. We are here to try and help and we will do our best :)