So Much That He Makes Me Physically Sick...

I can't believe there wasn't a group for this. The closest I can come is "I Hate My Step-Father." This worthless **** is NOT my step-father. Call him that, and have a sword shoved both up your *** and down your throat until they meet. I hate everything about him. Everything. There is no good whatsoever in this person. His world revolves around himself, and to him, nothing else matters. For instance, a conversation between he and my mom:
"I'm leaving for a few days. Give me your ******* credit card."
"I'll need food for the kids."
"No need for me to go hungry."
"Oh, right. Better them than you, huh?"
"Yep. Better them than me," as he took it out of her wallet.
This is a direct quote. It was last week, and I can't forget the words... He has a thirteen-year-old and a fourteen-year-old from a previous marriage, a three-year-old and a five-year-old with my mom. See? Little kids. Lots. Could you do that to your own children? Who could be that selfish?
Being around him makes me physically sick. When he comes home... I hear the door open, I hear his voice, and my stomach twists into a knot, and I have to run and throw up. I dread him that much. He's always yelling, using constant unnecessary profanity, won't let anyone else say anything...
The worst is how he takes twenty Vicodin and keeps me up all night. My room is in the basement, below the kitchen. For some reason, he just loves to stomp around in the kitchen... I don't know why, but I'm a light sleeper. I'll lay awake all night, crying from lack of sleep, too afraid to ask him to stop. Usually he'll just yell and refuse to be considerate. Tell me I "need to ******* deal with it and stop bitching." I'm an Honors and AP student. I need to sleep. His need to disrupt everyone constantly isn't greater than my need.
On occasion, I'll get the nerve to ask him to keep it down. I'll tiptoe cautiously up the stairs, and ask him, "Please, can you turn your music down and get what you need out of the kitchen and go somewhere else? You keep waking me up." Once in a while I'll get a positive response. He'll actually act maturely and leave. Of course, it doesn't last long, but... Can't have everything. On a more typical night, there's yelling, refusal, name calling, crying, throwing things... Just because I want to be able to sleep at night once in a while.
Aside from this, he lies about everything. Things that don't even make sense. He told my mom a few years ago that I molested his daughter. If you read my other most recent story before this one, you can see where he may have made this up from... But that's not what happened, and he knows it. I'd never want to harm anyone the way I've been hurt. I don't know why a 42-year-old man feels the need to make things up to create problems. It's pathetic.
He's a horrible, horrible human being, for more reasons than I've mentioned here. This is the tip of the iceberg. If you don't believe me, ask me about it privately... We'll have a field day. However, that's all for now... He hates me, and does everything possible to make my life miserable. Why? I have no idea. I don't support his white trash, druggie lifestyle, maybe? Who knows... I never did anything to him.
dpbg dpbg
18-21, F
1 Response May 22, 2012

Ouch. My mom's boyfriend is just a self centered hypocrite, but even he isn't that bad. I'm sorry that you have to go through that. I know what it like to have to step up for your siblings. My brother hates my mom's boyfriend just as much a I do.