I Hate My Mother
Thanks Mom For Only Giving Me The Material And Not The Emotional Love I Want.
By:
FlawlessEscapex
Written on February 12th, 2011
Me & my mom have NEVER gotten along, ever since I turned 13. When I was 13, I had a boyfriend & sneaked him into the house, but honestly we did NOTHING. I was a young LITTLE girl, what could we possibly do? Well ever since that mistake, she has never treated me the same. I'm the only child, so I understand that I'm her "only one", but she shouldn't treat me the way she does :/ There are countless beatings, scars, and I've been told "You're worthless", "You're ugly & no one's ever going to want you," & the "You're a fat *****." I get it EVERYDAY and have been told something everyday since I was 13. I just turned 17 today and she has never treated me so bad. Before I get to where I'm trying to get at, I just want to say everyone thinks I'm "spoiled," YES I have a brand new car, YES I get $400 in clothes, YES I get anything I want. . but I don't want ANY OF THAT, I just want my moms love :( All of my friends always say she does love you look at all the things you have.....since when did getting stuff and being materialized mean love?
Today my mom found a watch that I was planning to give my boyfriend as a Valentines present, and she went CRAZY. She took it away & says she would return it. My dad took us out to dinner for my birthday today and the entire time, she was just saying that I can just take all my stuff and leave when ever I want because she doesn't want liars, "prostitutes", and a failure in her house. She also said she wants me out of her life for good, all I do i spend her time & money. She also said I'm not going to be anything in life because I'm focused on the wrong things. My eyes teared up the entire dinner, I've never felt so bad. She made me feel worthless.
Why doesn't SHE focus on the fact that I'm top 3% in my high school graduating class, why doesn't she focus on the fact i make all A's & I'm one of the 30 chosen students in National Honor Society in my school, why doesn't she focus on the fact that I'm the well rounded - smart - athlete? Why can't she see the GOOD things in me =( My mom hates me, and I know it. She says it every single day. It hurts me that I can't give my mom a hug and kiss and say "I love you mom" like all my friends. It hurts me that I can't talk to her about friends, boys, etc. I'll always envy the girls with fun, loving mothers.
Today my mom found a watch that I was planning to give my boyfriend as a Valentines present, and she went CRAZY. She took it away & says she would return it. My dad took us out to dinner for my birthday today and the entire time, she was just saying that I can just take all my stuff and leave when ever I want because she doesn't want liars, "prostitutes", and a failure in her house. She also said she wants me out of her life for good, all I do i spend her time & money. She also said I'm not going to be anything in life because I'm focused on the wrong things. My eyes teared up the entire dinner, I've never felt so bad. She made me feel worthless.
Why doesn't SHE focus on the fact that I'm top 3% in my high school graduating class, why doesn't she focus on the fact i make all A's & I'm one of the 30 chosen students in National Honor Society in my school, why doesn't she focus on the fact that I'm the well rounded - smart - athlete? Why can't she see the GOOD things in me =( My mom hates me, and I know it. She says it every single day. It hurts me that I can't give my mom a hug and kiss and say "I love you mom" like all my friends. It hurts me that I can't talk to her about friends, boys, etc. I'll always envy the girls with fun, loving mothers.