I hate my mom so much. All she does is drink her alcohol. She doesnt care about me as long as she has her stupid money and alcohol. She has made me feel like she doesnt give a damn about me for so long now that I have thought that my only way out of here is to kill myself. She has neglected me all my life and has never cared about me. It's gotten to the point where I'm so depressed, the sad part is that no one knows. You know today is my birthday and she has only had about 3 conversations with me the entire day. I got home from school, she gave me a birthday present, said happy birthday and just left. I went to my room and she made dinner, for her. She didnt even ask me if I wanted anything. We cant even have a simple dinner together on my birthday! It seems that I can never be happy. I would rather be at school than come home. When I'm at school I actually feel safe and I'm somewhat happy. But when I get home I get all sad for no reason. I just want to be happy. I'd rather be any where but at home. I dont even feel safe here. She always leaves me here all alone, I hate it. I cant help but think all the time that I should kill myself. I need help, but I know that even if I tell her she just wont care. Then she'll go off and drink herself to sleep. I really do hate her and I cant wait until I move out.