I Hate My Mother
My best friends' dad might have terminal cancer , but I'm not sure if I should feel sorry for him. The last time I stayed at their house, he showed me his penis, rubbed my hand on his penis while I was half awake and tried to grope my breast while he thought I was asleep.
I have tried to rely on my mom to help me figure out my feelings toward his cancer, but all she said to me was that cancer was a horrible death and, however she believed me when I first told her about what their dad did, she is know assuming I am lying just because he has cancer.
I ******* hate her so much because she can NEVER let me come to her for help without her making me look like the bad guy. I can't tell her I feel unappreciated without her turning around and scolding me, and then continuing to ramble about how SHE has it SOOO MUCH WORSE. I also am confident that she wants me to hold in all of my anger and emotions.
Take out my anger on a person? GROUNDED.
Take out my anger on an object? GROUNDED.
Take out my anger on myself? GROUNDED.
Have personal problems? SCOLDED.
Have low self esteem? SCOLDED.
Want sympathy, encouragement and a hug? SCOLDED AND TOLD YOU DON'T HAVE IT AS BAD AS SHE DOES.
I have no other place to release all of my pent up anger because she'll get pissed at me and ground me for daring to release my anger on ANYTHING. She refuses to help me, believing you have to fix your anger by yourself, without support.
I go most of the time feeling like I want to slit my wrists and end my life because she won't ever help me. All she does is make me feel even worse about myself than I did before I came to her for help. She keeps saying to me, "I'm your mother. You can talk to me about ANYTHING." How am I supposed to talk to her about ANYTHING if she just makes me feel terrible whenever I try?
Sometimes I love her, sometimes I want to move away from here and never come back.
I'm afraid she won't ever change her attitude.
I have tried to rely on my mom to help me figure out my feelings toward his cancer, but all she said to me was that cancer was a horrible death and, however she believed me when I first told her about what their dad did, she is know assuming I am lying just because he has cancer.
I ******* hate her so much because she can NEVER let me come to her for help without her making me look like the bad guy. I can't tell her I feel unappreciated without her turning around and scolding me, and then continuing to ramble about how SHE has it SOOO MUCH WORSE. I also am confident that she wants me to hold in all of my anger and emotions.
Take out my anger on a person? GROUNDED.
Take out my anger on an ob
Take out my anger on myself? GROUNDED.
Have personal problems? SCOLDED.
Have low self esteem? SCOLDED.
Want sympathy, encouragement and a hug? SCOLDED AND TOLD YOU DON'T HAVE IT AS BAD AS SHE DOES.
I have no other place to release all of my pent up anger because she'll get pissed at me and ground me for daring to release my anger on ANYTHING. She refuses to help me, believing you have to fix your anger by yourself, without support.
I go most of the time feeling like I want to slit my wrists and end my life because she won't ever help me. All she does is make me feel even worse about myself than I did before I came to her for help. She keeps saying to me, "I'm your mother. You can talk to me about ANYTHING." How am I supposed to talk to her about ANYTHING if she just makes me feel terrible whenever I try?
Sometimes I love her, sometimes I want to move away from here and never come back.
I'm afraid she won't ever change her attitude.
By:
BabyCuddles
Age:
13-15
,
Female
