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Overveiw I Hate My Mom, Advice Needed

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i didnt always hate my mom when we were younger and i was very naive we were bestfriends. i was 8 years old and smoking pot. by the age of ten i was drinking, age 12, cigarrets, age 13 drinking had become very heavy and i realized i had to stop. I'm 14 in january 2013 ill be completly sober for a whole year.
I didnt start fighting with my mom till i stopped doing drugs. she spends all the house money on weed that my 19 year old sister works her *** off for at her job when she could be going to college. when she's not smoking weed or drinking she's yelling,crying or hitting me or my twin brother. she's so lazy and weak i'm disgusted by the sight of her. i'll be a freshman this year and i have a lot of band practices she says i'll have to walk to probably all of them, including physical therapy for my back.
words can't describe how little i feel for her. i have NO respect for her. i belive everything happens for a reason, my mom was drugged and basically raped by 3 men so i dont know my dad and she tells me im a mistake every day and talks about how she shouldve aborted me when she had the chance.
and i dont belive her rape story its changed so much over every time she's told it, she's always looking for self pity. she quit nursing school for weed. she is bipolar and we cant make eye contact because i have some kind of "glare" on my face? i try to hide it but there is so much hate pouring out of me i guess. i would leave but my nana is just as undependable as her.
my mom will yell at me and then wanna be my bestfriend. i cant do that! and i hate how much of me i see in her, what if i become her?!
the thing i hate the absolute most is when she calls me "princess" in a mocking voice
im clearly not a princess i have to clean filthy houses for money for school clothes, im white but everyone knows my ghetto mom, and lately i want to kill myself all the time.
there is a lot more and probably will be more in the years to come.
i know it could be worse but i guess i'm weak and need a little help through it.
just please give me some good advice that'll help me make it through these last few years.
thank you
smilekid527 smilekid527 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 22, 2012

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thanks guys :)<br />
im going to keep my head up. I'm an A-honor roll student and i'm going to keep it up. thank you for your advice and support! (:

Sounds a lot like my mother, although she never got me into drugs. She's selfish and gave me, my sister, and my father up for herself. If I lived with my mother, I'd be out on the streets. I can't stand her! If I were you, I would probably consider living with a relative or friend, or move into foster care or somethin'. Anything would be better than living with your mother. It's pretty obvious that she doesn't care about you. There are people out there who don't even know you, and care about you. Like me :)

whoa i just commented on your story before i read your comment.
our mom's have a lot in common sadly =.=

lol really? :)
though my mom tries to wear her white hat and pretend she's a saint. lol she's no mother teresa. but, i'm glad i don't see her much anymore. there's no way i'd ever kill myself over her. it would be like killing myself over a dead fly. at least when you turn 18, you can get away from her.

you know, killing your self isn't the answer. You kill your self... Then what? Try your best to survive, at least until u graduated school. Then find your self a life. It's not going to be easy, but not impossible. Help your self, cause only you can. Goodluck, God Bless :)