A Valid Reason To Hate Your Mother

Since I can remember, I have always known my mother was off. I realized I couldn't trust her when I was 4 and she told me my birthday money got wet and she had to throw it away. As I grew, things only got worse. My dad had to take a job that kept him away from home. My sister got sick, so my mom started drinking. My brothers were older than me, so the would leave when she started drinking. My sister was sick, so my mom took her anger out on me. At this time I was only 10. By 12 I was drinking too. She tought this was acceptable. By the time I was 15, I was addicted to pain pills because she told me it was ok to take them even if I wasn't in pain. I began dating an abusive guy when I was 16. I thought this was ok because I had grown up being abused, i thought this was a normal relationship. My parents split at this time and my dad soon remaried. My mom convinced me that my stepmom was evil. My mom then moved me to a new town and my life began to change. I met a great guy who helped me get rid of my abusive boyfriend. I moved out of my mom's place. I married that wonderful guy. He and his family are still showing me how wonderful a normal, loving family can be. I also started talking to my dad again. My stepmom continued to be nice to me, without being overly pushy. For that, we have a wonderful relationship. I now have a beautiful son, a wonderful husband, a loving family, a stable place to live,and a good job. I haven't talked to my mom in over 1 year. I have not let her see my son because I know she will be abusive towards him. I am sure of this because she was abusive towards my niece. Many people don't understand how I can actually hate my mother. I know that what I am doing is what is best in my life. Even through all of this, I don't have any regrets, nor do I wish to change the past. Without the bad things that have happened in my life, I wouldn't be as strong as I am. I wouldn't be able to enjoy the good in my life. My past drives me to be a better person. I am determined to be the best mother I can be to my baby.

Cuddlescal Cuddlescal
22-25, F
1 Response Mar 10, 2010

I can understand how you hate your mom. Unless one has walked in your shoes, it's difficult to understand. Move forward with your life. Don't push the past under a rug, it will catch up with you. I know from experience. Deal with the hurt, seek therapy if you need to . Trust me on this. If you don't at the most bizarre time in your life all of it will come back like a slap in the face. Take care of yourself and your son. Do not allow your mom to set the perimeters of your relationship. You can call the shots. HUGS