I Hate My Parents
I am 17 years old and most people would guess that I am along the lines of 12-13. If I go somewhere I am automatically given a children's ticket and I feel intimidated by people my age because of how young I look. I feel like there aren't any guys who would see me and be interested in me because I look a lot younger than them. Sometimes this really upsets me and I wish I could just look my age. I have never had a boyfriend or anything. I feel like everyone else has had experience in dating except me, and I have lack of confidence because of it.
I don't have any friends and I have a hard time making friends. I wish I had a social life but I have none whats-so-ever. Everyone else is doing fun stuff while i'm at home typing some damn story on a computer that i've been on all day ( and week). I don't feel like i'm a normal kid. I wish I could just fit in with MY OWN AGE GROUP. I don't think I would have trouble making friends because I am tiny though, being quiet is also a big factor. People assume that I am shy because I am not talking. I don't think i'm shy, but I hate when people label me as shy. Jesus Christ, im 17 years old and my mom constantly tells people " Oh she's shy" and that makes me wanna talk even less because now i'm labeled to be something im not and then I feel embarrassed. I mostly hate it when she does it to people my age and then they already have false f---ing perseptions of me. My mom tells me to put on make-up to look older. I have tried that and I don't think it does anything but make me more attractive for another 13 year old boy if even that. When I put on make-up I don't want to be seen as a 13 year old putting on make-up and I don't want people to make false judgements on me. I absolutely hate being tiny. Maybe people say " Oh you will like it when your older." Maybe that might be true but it ain't doing crap for me now. What about all the damn teen years ill never get back. I feel so inferior to my age group and I hate what I see when I look in the mirror.
Why can't I just look my damn age? Is that too much to ask?:/
PS: If you see a girl who looks younger than she is and she tells you your age DO NOT respond by saying " OMG YOUR 17 WHOAH YOU LOOK SO MUCH YOUNGER." or " OMG YOUR A JUNIOR?! I THOUGHT U WERE A FRESHMEN." --.-- this doesn't help her confidence.
I don't have any friends and I have a hard time making friends. I wish I had a social life but I have none whats-so-ever. Everyone else is doing fun stuff while i'm at home typing some damn story on a computer that i've been on all day ( and week). I don't feel like i'm a normal kid. I wish I could just fit in with MY OWN AGE GROUP. I don't think I would have trouble making friends because I am tiny though, being quiet is also a big factor. People assume that I am shy because I am not talking. I don't think i'm shy, but I hate when people label me as shy. Jesus Christ, im 17 years old and my mom constantly tells people " Oh she's shy" and that makes me wanna talk even less because now i'm labeled to be something im not and then I feel embarrassed. I mostly hate it when she does it to people my age and then they already have false f---ing perseptions of me. My mom tells me to put on make-up to look older. I have tried that and I don't think it does anything but make me more attractive for another 13 year old boy if even that. When I put on make-up I don't want to be seen as a 13 year old putting on make-up and I don't want people to make false judgements on me. I absolutely hate being tiny. Maybe people say " Oh you will like it when your older." Maybe that might be true but it ain't doing crap for me now. What about all the damn teen years ill never get back. I feel so inferior to my age group and I hate what I see when I look in the mirror.
Why can't I just look my damn age? Is that too much to ask?:/
PS: If you see a girl who looks younger than she is and she tells you your age DO NOT respond by saying " OMG YOUR 17 WHOAH YOU LOOK SO MUCH YOUNGER." or " OMG YOUR A JUNIOR?! I THOUGHT U WERE A FRESHMEN." --.-- this doesn't help her confidence.
By:
melisa1211
Age:
18-21
,
Female
