I Hate Them For Hating Me And Doing Bad Things

I was born with complex seizures. (I'm unaware of what is going on around me. It's kind of like blacking out.I have amnesia during it.) My parents cannot accept me and have done things like locking me outside, taking any dolls I got. I was spanked if I had a seizure. She has taken other things of mine and will not give them back and gives the things to other people. She constantly compares me to others. She told me that that I am an embarrassment and not to tell anybody. Her boyfriend molested me. My mother gave him a key to my apartment.He did this several times. I told her and she said "So..what do you expect me to do about it" My father knows and is angry with me because I cannot forgive her. I told him that I cannot because I have to live with it for the rest of my life. She doesn't. He gets mad if I have a seizure. My mother told me that nobody will ever like me. (I believed her.) When I was 8. I ran away from home and was one from about 6am until 7 pm. I only went about 7 miles or so to get to my destination. When I realized that I had no where to go is why I came back. I was gone a whole day and she hadn't even notice I was gone. There were so many other things. I have had therapy to help me get away from the past. It has not helped. My 2 brothers hate me as well because I "am just a stupid epileptic." My brothers have the same attitude.
kyitty kyitty
51-55, F
Mar 27, 2012