Why?

Why the hell do you prohibit me to be with my boyfriend? With the guy who loves me and makes me so happy? Can't you freaking see how happy I am ??? I don't get you... I used to love both of you, so much ! But that was long time ago. We are so far apart even if we live in the same house. You never tried to understand me. You never allowed me to do the things I wanted. I always had to do everything the way YOU wanted! I am a person with my own brains, can't you fu*king understand that??? And why the hell do you hate my boyfriend? You haven't even met him !!! You immediately rejected him because he's black ! What the **** is wrong with you ??? I HATE YOU, I HATE YOU, I HATE YOU! SO MUCH! And I hate 'my brother' too! You piece of a **** who always hits me and insults me with all your friends! I want to disown you all, I don't belong to this fu*king 'family' !!! This isn't even a family !!! You all were the reasons why I had depression since age of 10 when I started to think on my own slowly !!! You were the reasons why I used to cut so much !!! I HATE YOU ALL !!!