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You know what **** you. I'm sooooooooooooooooo sorry you got stuck with me instead of a boy. I'm sorry that my life is sooooo useless compared to theirs. But you know what maybe my life isn't worth it. Since I'm just a piece of **** among the angels right? You can say all you want about how much you love me but it's not fun to be around me. I'm sorry but have you ever felt this way? No. I'm sure you haven't because here I am sitting with my computer feeling like I want to die. Obviously you can't say anything now can you? Why did you bring me into this world? Was it so I could feel the pain of the world? Am I just a doll for you to take your anger out? Or should I just die? Because you obviously don't think that my life is worth crap compared to theirs? I'm sorry I'm not some great soccer player and I'm sorry I'm not super smart in school. Sure I may tell lies, make mistakes, be a *****! But I always apologize later. So what does that mean everything I say to you goes in one ear and out the other. People make mistakes. Maybe I just make more! But does that mean that I'm worthless. Yeah sure you may not say it, but you know what I can see it in your eyes, I'm not stupid. I have things I like to do! You say that you do everything for me and that my friends do nothing for me yet they fill in the gap in my heart because you ******* put it there. Yeah their not important at all, yeah ******* right. They make me smile when you **** me off and make me cry. They're there for me when you aren't. Sure we have our ups and downs but their the ones who are there for me at the moment. You aren't. You don't know me. You can think all you want that you know me. But you don't. You don't know anything about me, except the material things.

That's why this question always pops up in my mind.

Is this life worth it?
Constantly having to fill the whole that you make. Keeping my life a secret because I know you won't be able to understand what I'm going through.
Although my outer appearance is one that is tough, and can feel no pain. I probably feel more than you think. I'm not an monster, I'm not a plant! I have ******* feelings. Maybe more than you'll ever be aware of. You can think you care, but you're just lying to yourself. My life's a lie, why did you bring me here. I hate it. Please send me back soon. I want a refund on myself.
anger101 anger101
18-21, F
Dec 9, 2012