I Hate My Past

The things that have happened have been hard ; I have struggled many years to overcome what I lived through and survived. I tried to forget my past and it always seemed to sneak up on me.  I pretended that it never happened ;Yet ,I never seemed to do enough drugs to dull the pain, As I got sober and cleared my head alittle. WHAM !!!! It hit me the hardest. No matter how I try to get rid of the past; It has made me part of who I am . Had I not lived through these experinces I wouldn't be ME!!!! And I have kind of started to like me. 
tigeress1970 tigeress1970
36-40, F
2 Responses May 28, 2007

We all have a past but most importantly a future. It is not how you start out but how you finish . As long as you are good to people and respectful of others and know how to love , all is good.

Excellent post. Our past follows us where ever we go until we can deal with it. I wish I could rub out my past and some part of it. But that won't happen. Take care.