Yup. Me, Too.

In a moment of frustration, I did google "I hate my relationship" simply because I didn't know where else to express this. I read a great book titled Coming Apart about how to see the signs of a relationship on its way out the door. I tried desperately on SEVERAL attempts to get the "love of my life" to have a heart-to-heart conversation, which he would not do. He resides in a head space all the time, and went so far as to tell me that he can't discuss his feelings. You would think that after two years of red flags that I would be able to wipe my hands clean of this guy. He doesn't respect me, his colleagues, his family, or himself. He has enemies everywhere - even his own father. He doesn't know what love really is. I still can't figure out why I am drawn to this guy. Our relationship is not serving a purpose. We're not providing each other any mutual support or anything valuable. I'm trying to figure out why I'm trying to make a dead relationship work.

Everything is my fault with him. If I'm honest, he beats me up for it. If I'm distant, he beats me up for it. If I try to get close, he beats me up for it. I don't know why I volunteer for the abuse. I know that we all deserve love, compassion, and understanding. I am no exception and neither is he. I just want someone to tell me how to break this nasty pattern of self-yuck.

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3 Responses May 6, 2012

I am always back and forth with this one too. Some days are good others are why the hell did I ever have to meet this fool! I guess marriage at times can be an emotional roller coaster....I know mine can once in a while. He always say I love you but where are the actions to back it up. Where is the compassion when needed. WORDS CAN BE SAID BY A PARROT.............<br />
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I am so bored and disgusted right now, I have a job I hate but need so bad. Marriage you heard the speal I only hope for some happiness to come my way some day......I feel it will just take time. <br />
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I'm in a similar relationship. It sucks! Your brain tells you to leave but your heart tells you to stay. I don't have any advice but I want you to know your not the only one going through this crap. We could talk if you wanted too. We have a lot in common.

You are in a challenging relationship and trying to be the martyr/miricle worker by getting this real AHOLE to come around if no one wants to be bothered with him sorry honey neither should you...why waste your time.....there are other guys around don't get stuck with this one. <br />
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If I were you I would get out of this relationship and spend time on my own do the soul searching, self examining and really as the song say; "Give myself a good talking to this time" <br />
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GOOD LUCK <br />