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Living With A Selfish Hypocrite.

in the beginning he was perfect. i loved him so much, that spark, that passion that flowed between us was almost overwhelming. i would meet with him, and before i could even see his face i would be overcome with butterflies. i would feel weak, desperate to see his smile.

we were in love, a feeling better than anything i had ever felt before.

we've been together a couple years now, we have a beautiful baby boy.
i think it was during my pregnancy that we started to fall apart. we are young parents, experiencing difficulties that might not occur for all parents. i was moody, of course, i started to resent him a little. i'm not completely sure why, maybe it was the fact that he could still behave the same way he always had, when i couldn't.
after i had my son things got so much worse between us. we are great parents, he is a great father. our struggle with our relationship does not stretch beyond the two of us.
i think i might hate him. i love him, i do, but i have this resentment that has lingered since i was pregnant that i can't ignore.
i feel like i do a lot of things myself, i deal with a lot of emotions myself. i feel like he should be there for me more than he is, more than he tries to be.
our fights are ridiculous, there is no getting through to him. he is right and thats that. nothing else is even worth hearing to him. he is a hypocrite, he will yell at me for something and do the same thing moments later...i'm getting pretty tired of it and i'm not sure what to do.

sometimes i wish i never met him, maybe i wouldn't be so miserable.
he acts like such a victim and never notices MY pain.

i feel alone. i have no one but my son, who's not old enough to talk yet so i'd say i speak a maximum of 200 words a day, because he would rather do anything but talk to me.

i feel like he only cares about himself.

whats a girl to do.

taylorjade taylorjade 18-21, F 4 Responses Oct 11, 2009

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I hear you, been there, done that! thanks for sharing now I know im not alone. Speak up acted out don't use resentments, live everyday of your life like it was your last! Time to live for yourself and keep happy for you and baby everything else is extra believe me!!!!

LifeMok - you need HELP as well. I mean You expect your man to get into counseling when obviously you're the one who needs help. On one hand you're calling him selfish and then you say "I am miserable but cannot leave because I am a full time student and would have no means of supporting myself..." So basically you're Just using him for money. At least Thank the guy for not leaving you In the gutter.

Sounds to me like you're the selfish hypocrite in your relationship... "i was moody, of course, i started to resent him a little. i'm not completely sure why, maybe it was the fact that he could still behave the same way he always had, when i couldn't." You clearly stated that YOU started hating him because he could do things you couldn't.. See a therapist. You need help figuring yourself out!

I am in the same situation...and it hasn't gotten any better with the birth of my second child. I am married to a narcissistic selfish childish man who can only experience things from his point of view. I don't know what to do either as I am miserable but cannot leave because I am a full time student and would have no means of supporting myself and my children. I completely empathize with you! Try to get him into counseling if he will go...mine says it's too expensive - ha.