Living With A Selfish Hypocrite.
in the beginning he was perfect. i loved him so much, that spark, that passion that flowed between us was almost overwhelming. i would meet with him, and before i could even see his face i would be overcome with butterflies. i would feel weak, desperate to see his smile.
we were in love, a feeling better than anything i had ever felt before.
we've been together a couple years now, we have a beautiful baby boy.
i think it was during my pregnancy that we started to fall apart. we are young parents, experiencing difficulties that might not occur for all parents. i was moody, of course, i started to resent him a little. i'm not completely sure why, maybe it was the fact that he could still behave the same way he always had, when i couldn't.
after i had my son things got so much worse between us. we are great parents, he is a great father. our struggle with our relationship does not stretch beyond the two of us.
i think i might hate him. i love him, i do, but i have this resentment that has lingered since i was pregnant that i can't ignore.
i feel like i do a lot of things myself, i deal with a lot of emotions myself. i feel like he should be there for me more than he is, more than he tries to be.
our fights are ridiculous, there is no getting through to him. he is right and thats that. nothing else is even worth hearing to him. he is a hypocrite, he will yell at me for something and do the same thing moments later...i'm getting pretty tired of it and i'm not sure what to do.
sometimes i wish i never met him, maybe i wouldn't be so miserable.
he acts like such a victim and never notices MY pain.
i feel alone. i have no one but my son, who's not old enough to talk yet so i'd say i speak a maximum of 200 words a day, because he would rather do anything but talk to me.
i feel like he only cares about himself.
whats a girl to do.