My Sister, Jealousy.My sister was a very jealous person starting from a very young age. If my brother got 13 carrots on a plate and so did she, she got angry, because she should have had 14. Now that she's older, you can imagine how bad it is. She got married & had kids young, she's since been divorced twice. We all have our problems, and with her I feel like, you made your bed now lay in it. After she got out of her teens she started hanging with pretty bad people, people who like to party & do drugs. I wasn't allowed out with her, obviously. She couldn't even take me to get my nails done because she was in such a bad place. She blames my mother for our nonexistent relationship.
Once again, you make your bed, you lay in it.
19 years later, she's "trying to have a relationship with me." Isn't it funny how people say one thing yet do another? How can you take up on something that isn't there? She had almost TWENTY years (most of them I couldn't drive so I take no responsibility for not seeing her) to try and have even a scrap of a relationship, but she didn't care. She's said so many nasty things to my parents, particularly my mother. She almost made my dad cry, which is hard to do..the last time I saw him cry was when my grandma died. That hit home pretty well, I'm sure you can imagine. I'm very close with both of my parents, and I honestly feel that unless she treats them both like gold, a relationship with her isn't possible.
I don't relate with my siblings. I just don't. I'm not into getting drunk and doing stupid things. Yet because of this I deserve to be ostracized? My brother will still go see her no matter WHAT she's done in the past...& she's treated him pretty bad. Really bad, now that I think of it. But they grew up together, so maybe I'm missing some hidden sibling love between them. I don't understand the bond between siblings, because it's just not there.
It really sucks to be an only child yet have two siblings.
I guess either people can care, or they just don't care, and in my situation, they don't. I still want that sisterly love, you know. I've never had it. I 100% feel I'd be happier if I never heard from her in the first place.
I'm not being insensitive. You know, I have a life too. And it's unfair to expect me to just drop my life when she finally decides she wants a sister. And if she was sorry for how she's been, she wouldn't keep acting the same way.
"And when someone apologizes to you enough times for things they’ll never stop doing, I think it’s fearless to stop believing them. It’s fearless to say “you’re NOT sorry”, and walk away.
howyalikemenow 18-21, F 1 Response 0 Jan 12, 2012