My Step-father Is An Ignorant Piece-o-crapFor years this man has been the bane of my existence. He and my mom have been together for seven years and I have not grown to love, like or tolerate him. In the beginning he was a little turd that drank a lot and came home drunk often. He would insult me about my weight, he came into my room once when I was 13 and came into my bed late at night because he was drunk and didn't want to let her know. He hit me when I was younger but wasn't stupid enough to try it again. When I was younger and even now he used to bad-mouth my biological father and say how he (stepdad) was more a father than my real father.
My mom didn't make me get used to him either. She said I have to call him dad (or some form of it) or call him uncle. I HATED that I still don't call him anything consistent because it's awkward and I don't want anyone thinking that we have a close relationship. I don't know why I can't call him by his first name like everyone I know calls their stepfather. He's my distant cousin on top of it.
Now I'm 18 and he just shout at me again because he has problems and he needs to deal with them. He screamed at my mother (And I am so serious that he never lowers his voice, so you would always hear my mother's rational voice and his yelling) that I'm lazy and he doesn't want me around his children (who are 6 and 2) and that she should step up and tell me something about it. Then he saw me walking past and started shouting at me about how he knew I heard him and how things around here are going to change because he's the man of the house (excuse me - apartment) and it's his way or the highway and said that I'm a grown woman and that I could just leave if I didn't like it. Then I asked him to lower his voice and he got freakin' louder.
But the thing that makes me want to lash out even more is that my mother just sits there like the good little Christian woman that she is and takes it. She won't stick up to me or herself and when he starts to cuss she just laughs and takes it. He insults her and she just grins and bears it.
I want to leave so badly but I can't because I have no family that can take me in or I want to be taken into. My biological father could care less because he has 7 illegitimate children and he just got married into a 'real' family in February to a woman who brought in 2 kids of her own. I'm working this summer but nothing that will support me at all.
I know that I'm 18 and I should be leaving the nest but I haven't even finished college as yet, which I'm putting myself through. I really would like advice as well as to how I could leave. I would even love to leave the country. I don't want to stay here any longer.
I hate this house. I hate this marriage. I hate this man. And I hate MY LIFE.