My Life

i am sick and tired of cutting, and being emotional every ******* day. it makes my head hurt. i try to make friends but it just doesnt work. i just wont people to talk to instead of my foster mom or dad or sister who doesnt understand me at all. all there just trying to do is change change change and change everything about me. they keep telling me how im not good enough. i keep blaming myself because my reall mom doesnt love me i just wont a familly. maybe i chould kill myself. the last time i said that i went to the hospital and went to a group home and know i miss them. my life is so unfare. i mean my mom doeasnt love me. i have a brother who i love but have nothing in commen with. and i cut, i got raped to. I HATE MY LIFE!!

oceanvampiregurl1 oceanvampiregurl1
13-15, F
3 Responses Mar 11, 2009

Wow tht is soo sad :( but dont cut cuz if they new it would just make things even worst but just think the day u turn 18 u can ditch ur foster family if they dont love u just think about all thoses other people tht do and would cry if u were gone i hope this great better for u

Wow tht is soo sad :( but dont cut cuz if they new it would just make things even worst but just think the day u turn 18 u can ditch ur foster family if they dont love u just think about all thoses other people tht do and would cry if u were gone i hope this great better for u

wow, i'm really sorry that you're going through that. you must be an incredibly strong person for being able to deal with all that awful stuff. i admire your courage. <br />
please don't cut yourself, nothing good will ever come out of that. and please don't even consider killing yourself. you might not realize this now, but you were put here on this earth for a reason. don't try to change yourself or let anyone else change you. just learn to love yourself. and even though that's way harder to do than it might sound, it's totally worth it. and always remember, you are not alone. everyone goes through rough times and everyone feels hopeless at some point or another. don't give up.