I Really Really Hate My Old Best Friend
OK, my old best friend (her name is Rebekah) and I were so close while we were in high school. We were the girls who hung around in the isolated section of the room, the quiet intelligent girls of the class. However, when it came to people liking us, she always came out on top. People were always around her, taking her places like pool parties, study groups, dances while I was never even spoken to my other people much less invited. Luckily, she never really got into that stuff and when something she didn't like started going on she would always leave. I'll admit I am of the jealous type, and I never really liked it when people came over to where we were sitting and steal her for something or for the fact that people liked her more than me. It always bugged me, but I never made made a big deal out of it. I just kept all these feelings bottled up because I'm a quiet person and I hardly ever share my feelings or say what I am thinking. Well, anyway, high school ended and we were still great friends. We'd rent a beachhouse every summer with just the two of us staying there and we'd hang out at the movies, her house, and do whatever. Then, she moved into her apartment in the city and started going to college. Now, anyone out there can guess that once a young adult goes to college they are bound to make some new friends. That's unavoidable. I know. I decided to go straight into the work force right after high school so I could save up come spending money for college. I worked a full-time job for two years while she went to the local university. We met up whenever we could and talked on MSN. However, she would always have to get off early because her roommates wanted to go out to dinner or go see a movie. Eventually it came to the point that whenever I asked if we could do something, she'd become hesitant. Then she started to flat out refuse. I figured that it was because she was in college, taking way too many classes and she had tons of homework. I imagine that at first that''s what it was. But after awhile, in her economics class, she met two girls that she really "clicked" with. ( I met these girls and I would never have figured HER to even socialize with people like that. These are the type of girls who are constatly checking their nails, say the word 'like after every freaking word, wear a lot of make-up, and you can just tell by the way they carry themselves that they are stuck-up) Anyway they began to hang out all the time and I hardly ever heard from her anymore. Whenever we did talk, she'd would always be talking about things her and her new posse had been doing. I was getting rather tired of hearing about it so I posted a desicion topic on my facebook page telling people that I had a problem and I was debating whether or not to cut something out of my life that was causing some real negative feelings and was distracting me from the real important things in my life such as my job, family, and continuing my education. Needless to say, i decided to back off from her. She quickly noticed and became instantly pissed as though I had insulted her. We were already growing apart and I figured she would barely notice if I slowly started to dissolve the relationship. Well, we talked about it and I thought that we had fixed things and the friendship could continue, but then she made the big a** mistake of trying to take over the writing of one of my novels because she didn't like what I was writing. (I'm an avid writer. It's my personal dream to become an accomplished author.) She writes stories for 11 and 12 year olds while I enjoy writing adult novels! You can imagine how much that pissed me off! Her dumbing down my book just because she wasn't happy with it! That was the final straw. Not five hours after we talked out our little problem, I emailed her and my guts just spilled. I let her know everything that I was concealing from her. My thoughts about her snotty looking friends, what I thought about her lame excuse for writing, I mean everything that I had been bottling up inside since we became friends five years earlier. Well, as you can imagine, she didn't take it too well. She said "I'll save you the trouble and end this friendship myself". We haven't spoken in nearly six months. But once I ran into her mother at the grocery store and it was one of those meetings that you think "Aw, sh*t! Please don't see me, please don't see me. Damn it, they saw me." And you force a smile and quickly walk away. Ugh! And I know her mother told her about it cause those two are practically insepararble. Now I find out that ***** put a facebook block on me, thinking that I was going to harass her or something. What the hell does she think I am going to do? Not to mention, I am starting to think that she may have spilled the beans about our little situation to some other people who are mutaul acquaintaces because these people aren't even speaking to me anymore! We both come from the same small community (you know that one where everyone knows everyone and knows everyone's business) Yeah, that makes life all SO much better for me. Sometimes while I am trying to go to sleep, I envision keying her brand new Honda or giving her new laptop a computer virus that wipes the entire system. God, she made me mad! Now, I feel like I can't even go out into the community anymore because she has permentantly feigned (destroyed) my reputation. I really wish I could just forget about her and these horrible feelings she puts me through. But the only way that's going to happen is if she moves away, and that's not going to happen because quote un quote "I can never leave my mother. I can't bare to be apart from her." Jeez, what a *****.