I Just Cut Myself.

I just cut myself three times for the three stupid things I did today. I cut myself yesterday, and the day before that, and the day before that. I have so many cuts on my wrist, old and new. So why doesn't anyone notice? I wear short sleeves almost every day, my We Heart It account is filled with pictures about depression and self harm, I've been raising my left hand in class... I feel like I'm making it so obvious but nobody notices! Or maybe they do notice, they just don't care. Won't somebody tell on me? Anybody! Go tell a teacher, please! I need help, but I'm not strong enough to get it myself... And knowing that just makes me want cut myself more and more. It's a never-ending cycle.
anonymousinlove anonymousinlove
13-15, F
2 Responses Dec 19, 2012

Do you want people to notice to cuts or people to acknowledge how much you are hurting on the inside?

Do you think that average people will understand that cutting is the only thing that relieves the pain in your heart?

I think I might know some of what you're feeling. I have been cutting for about a month and a half now. Yesterday, I sliced the pads of every single one of my fingers, half hoping that someone would see what I had done and get me help, but no one did.
It is a sad fact that most people see what they want to see. When you raise your hand in class, maybe people see the cuts but they instantly come up with several alternate explanations for what happened so that they don't have to take action.
I'm here for you if you want to talk about anything. Here is my email: crookshankscat7@gmail.com

Thank you!!! :) it means a lot.