When I wake up some mornings I really dont want to go on.
I hate everything about myself. Especially thoughts that go on in my head. I find it so hard to deal with emotions especially when people kind caring and show you warmth.
Due to things in my past love hugs etc are alien to me.
I feel more secure with PAIN SADNESS and DOUBT.
Nobody can hurt me or let me down . Ive built a brick wall around me.
Nobody can hate me as much as I HATE MYSELF.