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I Hate Myself Sometimes

Hate Myself

By: angel7
Written on April 3rd, 2008

When I wake up some mornings I really dont want to go on.

I hate everything about myself. Especially thoughts that go on in my head. I find it so hard to deal with emotions especially when people kind caring and show you warmth.

Due to things in my past love hugs etc are alien to me.

I feel more secure with PAIN SADNESS and DOUBT.

Nobody can hurt me or let me down . Ive built a brick wall around me.

Nobody can hate me as much as I HATE MYSELF.

By: angel7
Age: 41-45
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  • Justjoan
    Justjoan

    You're right no one can hate you as much as you do. I had a long period of time when I felt that way(about 10 years). I'd like to say there's some easy way out but getting out takes hard work like w/ anything else but it's damn worth it though.

    Try to let someone in,just to talk nothing too deep,get out of the house and exercise some,just walk around or something.Do it for a while,I mean a couple of months. Just being out where people are,out in the sunshine,notice stuff(animals and whatnot). It will help get you out of yourself some.

    I won't tell you everything is fantastic when you decide to let someone close to you but it's a lot better than feeling THAT way,I know.

    Good luck and I hope things change for you in a positive way.

    May 4, 2008
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