I Wish I Could Snap My Fingers And Change

I have been on this stupid back and forth my entire life and I am so tired of it. I hate my life but I hate myself more for not being strong enough to change it. I can't commit it any lasting change and it is ruining my life. What is wrong with me? Why can't I get this right? I feel like this life is too hard for me and I am just want out!
aniave aniave
31-35, F
Jan 3, 2012