I Don't Know...

i sometimes hate myself because, i am not who i would like to be, i sometimes think i have nothing to live for, but then some people i know care for me, but at the same time, i feel like they only do it because there part of church, my mom wanted em to join this site, but now, i feel like whats the point? i'm here 24/7, i once tried not to come on for a week, i failed, and i have a lot of friends now, i mean a lot, and there wonderful, but i feel like i have nobody, i'm scared to tell what my real feelings are, i don't want to annoy my best Ep friends, i have so many problems, i don't feel like i'm 13, i feel older, that's how many problems i have, and one of the is pain, i'm in constint pain, i can never get my back to feel better....


i sometimes wish i never even exsited, so that way, the people around me, would be more happy, i'm not happy, i'm never happy, i'm just this depressed 13yr old girl, who can't help, doesn't have a life a head of her, and i'm not saying this to make fun of those children who died from the shooting, but i wish i was there, dead, then everyone would forget about me, its not like anyone would vist my grave, maybe my mom, but she's so sick, she's lucky she can even get to the restroom...

i wish i was dead, i wish i was never alive, i wish i was never ever created!
1PrettyLittlePsycho1 1PrettyLittlePsycho1
18-21, F
Dec 14, 2012