On the outside I always look happy I'm smiling and I joke around with everyone. But deep down inside I worry, I deal with anxiety. I always feel like I'm not good enough. And I don't have many friends mostly because I suck at talking or sometimes I'm scared to hang out with people. When I actually get the courage to go out with say a coworker I don't have much to say and it's filled with awkward silences sometimes. I never let people get close either really, I never talk about myself, what I'm feeling what's going on in my mind. Most of the time I just feel like I'm boring. I hate myself for it. I don't know what to do about it, how to fix it. I feel so plain and I don't want to be.
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22-25, F
Aug 18, 2014