I Have Hated Myself For 27 Years And It Won't Stop

Too painful to tell the story riight now, but no matter how much better I feel at times and no matter how much I achieve and no matter how much I connect and help others and enjoy life at times, I really wish I were dead because I just hate myself and wish I were dead. Ugh! I can't believe that my life expectancy is another 40 years. I am not going to kill myself, but existence is just painful.
fcow fcow
36-40
Jul 20, 2010