I Can't Stand Me.

I am 14 years old. I have never gotten what I wanted out of life and I understood that since I first moved into the house I am living at now and have been living at for nine years. It is partly because my younger sister. No matter what I do, she is always right. I want to kill myself at times because I know no one wants a bratty teen who thinks she knows everything.
When ever my two best friends fight, I feel it's my fault. I'm not a very social person on the inside so during the summer I shy away from friends to live on the computer. During school, I appear all happy and negociate fights so people are friends and happy. But since I don't hang out as much, they son't ask me because I don't like the things they like. They find new things and like different things. I always feel like the third wheel. When we do hang out I usually leave early because they probably don't like me.
I hate myself and everyone else does, too.
Dart214 Dart214
13-15, F
Jul 25, 2010