Reasons Why I Hate Myself

I Hate Myself for being alive still
I Hate Myself for being so selfish
I Hate Myself for being ungrateful
I Hate Myself for not having the balls to commit suicide
I hate myself for being mean to my mom
I hate myself for being mean to my brother
I hate myself for being fat
I hate myself for having big feet
I hate myself for not having up to date clothes
I hate myself for talking proper
I hate myself for not being able to keep a boyfriend
I hate myself for not being pretty
I hate myself for being bald headed
I hate myself for not being good enough to keep any of my ex’s
I hate myself for not being able to say no
I hate myself for smoking
I hate myself for drinking
I hate myself for being a stupid girl
I hate myself for not applying myself
I hate myself for being a ****
I hate myself for not having a big butt or boobs
I hate myself for being blind
I hate myself for not being able to handle my problems
I hate myself for not having a mind of my own
I hate myself for not having a perfect smile
I hate myself for not being able to sing
I hate myself for not being good at any sport
I hate myself for disappointing everyone
I hate myself for not standing up to people
I hate myself for crying all the time
I hate myself for not being able to dance
I hate myself for being irresponsible
I hate myself for not being able to drive
I hate myself because I’m always the joke of the day
I hate myself because I don’t go to church & I doubted GOD
I hate myself for cheating on my ex & messing up our relationship
I hate myself for not being good enough for my dad
I hate myself for still caring about my dad
I hate myself for resenting my mom
I hate myself for not having the life I deserve
I hate myself because I’m so stupid
I hate myself for being cierra.
I wish I could just die
I wish I was pretty
I wish I had a good relationship
I wish I wasn’t always the ugly friend
I wish people didn’t think I can’t do anything
I wish I could dance
I wish I could cook
I wish I didn’t have an appetite
I wish I could stick to something
I wish I was a virgin
I wish I wasn’t so gullible
I wish I could trade lives with someone who has nothing
I wish someone would see my cry for help
I wish I didn’t make myself feel like crap
I wish I didn’t cause myself to be depressed
I wish I didn’t break my moms trust
I wish I could talk to my mom easily
I wish I had a future besides the Army
I wish I was smart enough to go to college
I wish I didn’t make dumb decisions
I wish I could just die and go to hell
I wish I wasn’t a hoe
I wish I didn’t steal things
I want to cut again
I want to kill myself
I want to become a better person
I want to be loved
I want to be accepted for me
I want to get away
I want to stop feeling this way
I don’t deserve anything that I have
I don’t deserve a good family
I don’t deserve a boyfriend
I don’t deserve a dad
I don’t deserve life.

The sad part Is that I can change half the things on my list, but I won't allow myself to.
irrelevantperson14 irrelevantperson14
22-25, F
11 Responses Jul 31, 2010

We all get confused sometimes. I get lost in music and find my soul replenished after listening to it. Put it in gods hands. If you don't believe then what do you have to lose?

1. Don't commit suicide
2. I feel extremely bad for you
3.Big butts and boobs don't matter, I haven't got either and I'm happy with that.
4. I'm amazed you had the courage to say all that. I hardly have the courage to tell new people, "Hi."

5. I'm fat and I ignore people who call attention to it.

You are beautiful.
I love you.
I love you for being special.
I love you for being someone who cares.
I love you for being someone who wants to be better.
I love you for being who you are.
You are beautiful.
You are beautiful when you smile.
You are beautiful when you frown,
you are beautiful for the way your eyes twinkle in the light,
you are beautiful even when your down.
I love you.
You are beautiful.
I want you to live, and to love, and to be loved.
I wish you knew that you deserve all the love you have.

hello we all have someone who takes all our troubles away and gives us his new life, give him everything and take his love
Rom 5:6 For when we were still helpless, Christ died for the wicked at the time that God chose.
Rom 5:7 It is a difficult thing for someone to die for a righteous person. It may even be that someone might dare to die for a good person.
Rom 5:8 But God has shown us how much he loves us---it was while we were still sinners that Christ died for us!

Omg! some of this describes me so well! Your not alone! :(

I challenge you to say what you do love in life and what you look forward too.

Here is a link to a Free Personal Development Audio Book - I hope you can gain something from it :-)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SWDiXN8nAx4&feature=youtu.be

Fear not, for I am worse.

I can guarantee you, there are far worse people out there than you. Mainly because I can also guarantee you that a lot of the things on that little list of yours aren't true. They're in your head, events in your life have caused you to question the reason behind them, and you invented flaws in your character to justify them. The horrible sad truth is that most things don't happen for any kind of reason. It's the luck of the draw. If **** happens, don't blame yourself; blame circumstance.

Preach it

Try to find ways to improve yourself. Even if you don't succeed at first, keep looking for new ways to make yourself a better person. So long as you keep trying, you will at least one way at first, and use that to keep building the better person that you can be. I know it all sounds like bullshit, but trust me, even if it takes a long time you will find ways to make yourself better, albeit gradually. There's no instant solution; only effort and time can make you realize this goal.

This is sumthing I can relate 2!

this is really sad, cheer up :)

Bless you